December 2012 – Journal from an extremely grateful adoptive mom
As I look out my window, the snow is falling softly into the night. How many times have I watched the snow fall and wonder how each little snowflake could be different? Tonight though I am very aware of the shape of each big snowflake as it clings to the window and I wonder if I will ever have a child to hold in my arms and give all my love. I have wished for so long to be a mom and wondered many times, if it is meant to happen for me.
All of the adoption paperwork required by the adoption agency is complete, the social worker has come to visit our home and prepared the home study, friends and family have written letters of recommendation, the doctor has cleared us medically, our criminal and child abuse checks have been completed and now we wait, hope and wonder. As birthparents view our profile, we wait to be chosen to be parents. Some birthparents have decided it is meant for them to parent their babies and others have chosen a different family. Our respect for birthparents is enormous and words cannot explain the genuine love we feel for them. Making the decision to place their baby for adoption is a decision made with much thought and love. My heart is breaking as I long to hold my baby, the love for my baby is growing in my heart…two mothers both loving a child. I feel peace in my heart that that the baby God has for our family is near. It is the ultimate sacrifice of a birthmom to trust in the love and care of an adoptive mom for their baby, to know that their baby will have two mothers that would both make any sacrifice for their baby. So MUCH LOVE for all.
I wish peace for each birthmother that chooses life for their baby and then makes the decision to place their baby with a new family that is waiting with open arms to adopt their child. Birthparents are true HEROS and will always hold a very special place in my heart.
Working with Act of Love Adoption Agency is truly “A Act of Love”. Now as the sun shines bright and the birds sing lullabies, I am so BLESSED to hold my sweet baby boy in my arms. My heart is overflowing with love…my cheeks hurt from smiling…I dry my tears for this dear sweet woman who trusts me to give ALL my LOVE to her son. He did not grow in my tummy, but he grew in my heart that is bursting with love and gratitude… YES a true “Act of Love”. There are not words to say “thank you” to these HEROS…I wish you my dear sweet birthmom peace, love and joy.